I don't know what to do.

Hi Sara

Im so sorry about your diagnosis. I don't really know what to say but by me responding your post will go back to the top and hopefully someone who can help will read it and respond. You may have already done so but if you post in the bladder cancer section more people who have the same cancer will see your post. I have put a link below

 Bladder cancer forum 

Only you can make the decision on what you do, do you have anyone close you can talk to about where your head is at. Also there are lots of cancer charitys who would have people you could talk to. Sending hugs. Xxx