Hi i tried this a while ago and never carried on, but here i am again as i am struggling with my Husbands diagnosis on metastases' kidney cancer .
He is very down all the time and i try to keep his spirits up, but its very hard as i work full time (some days are 11 hr shifts) i just had 5 weeks off to help him as he has had some severe side effects from his first immunotherapy treatment (tx) then he got a peri anal abscess, along side numerous haemorrhoids, he is really really low.
He has always been melodramatic when it comes to being ill, so i have to admit i do struggle sometimes with him.
I just need to talk to someone, vent if you will. i feel guilty for being mad at him sometimes. I am also scared for what happens down the line......
Its all just so up in the air we don't know how long he has and i am just living in limbo.
Anyone else feel similarly?
Hi DellaG3c330d
When my wife was diagnosed she was clear that she did not want a prognosis and I really struggled with that.
Still down the line I eventually came to realise that a prognosis was at best an educated guess and I have seen so many people sail past a prognosis, some who seemed almost to did to order and in some cases people who felt robbed when their loved one died early.
What really helped me was doing a living with less stress course that helped me realize that nobody really knows what tomorrow will bring and that worrying about the future denied me the ability to appreciate what we have.
<<hugs>>
Steve
