HI
I'm in new territory waiting for an appointment date, the waiting is tough, my head is racing around. I've been on HRT since January, I'm 57, it's not been the wonderful solution to menopause that I often see, I've had lots of bleeding. Eventually I went to a menopause clinic last month and the wonderful doctor there referred me for an ultrasound. I expected it to be routine but the lining measured 14.8 and I was advised an urgent gynaecological appointment would be needed for a hysteroscopy. It could be polyps, fibroids or womb cancer. I focused on the lesser of those and felt ok but then my doctor said that I needed to understand that I was being referred for a suspected cancer finding, which really made me very scared.
My head's been all over the place since while I wait for the gynaecology appointment. I've not even been diagnosed yet! I don't know if that's worse or better. I feel such a burden to my husband constantly talking about what if scenarios from it being nothing to it being everything. Every ache and pain makes me think it's spread around my body. As I write this, I'm laughing at myself but it's hard to get rid of the dark thoughts.
How do people cope with the uncertainty? I'm trying to be sensible but it sometimes catches me and I feel very scared, panicky. I do like a plan!
I wish everyone going through any part of this all the very best.
And thanks for any thoughts, x
