Home after surgery to remove cancer from my mouth...from support to silence.

I wanted to say hello!

I'm going to try to not  moan too much because I know how hard a lot of people suffer bot just physically but emotionally because they have cancer.I have watched it take away a large part of my family. A grandparent,2 aunties,my dad and finally my daughter.

So I shouldn't have been surprised when it came knocking on my door on the 21st Feb.

After many "errors" by my GP surgery.Iwent for a biopsy 3 weeks ago.The consultant had a look and told me he wasn't going to do a biopsy, there was no point. he already knew what it was and it would only delay what he would have to do anyway-remove a "small" amount of my tongue.it was going to leave a hole,not very big and he would not stitch it up.

This monday I went in for the op.It turned out he had to take more than he had anticipated,he had also taken what he described as "a healthy margin" so there are  many stitches.It is/was under my tongue ,in the place where the tongue joins to the bottom of my mouth.

I'm unable to speak-just noises,can't eat solids, only 3/4 tea spoons of fortisip constantly or i choke. as my tongue is just a big lump in my mouth now. But I'm not in any pain as I have no feeling in it.

The ward was busy,people were chatty,friendly, up beat...now I'm home,a big empty house,just me,my thoughts and my little chihuahua.I have nobody except my mum who is 85 who visits 2/3 afternoons a week.

Now I await a staging scan.