I lost my mum in January this year following an unexpected diagnosis of terminal cancer after a mini stroke. I looked after mum for 7 weeks before she passed. I now look after my dad after work. I think i went back to work too soon (start of February) as now i think my grieving is catching up with me after being strong and on autopilot for so long. I feel so lost without mum but know I can’t carry on being sad as it is not doing my family any good seeing me so sad. Mum would be so disappointed in me as I binge drank on Saturday and I know alcohol is not going to change things for the better so I have sworn myself off it. My father in law has dementia and is receiving palliative care so I am trying to support my husband and boys too. I am being selfish aren’t I? I want to change for the positive but I don’t know how. I have an appointment with the doctor this morning. My husband doesn’t want me to stay home and be off work as he says he can’t cope with me. I am trying not to let my dad know that I am off work today. I have let everyone down. Sorry for the long story but thank you to anyone who reads this.
Hi Losingmum I am so sorry to hear about your mum, my sincere condolences.
This is such a challenging and stressful time for you but getting support from others who are dealing with the ‘exact same' journey can help you a lot..... but the important thing is you have not let anyone down...... this is a hard time for you especially with everything that is going on around you ((hugs))
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