Esophageal issues dysphagia

 Im here just need some support am sorry if this is long winded. But I'm going out of my mind. I have had acid reflux for over 10 years im 38 now. I have taken lanzoprazole for 10 years but in Oct last year I noticed rice and burgers sticking in my chest , felt like it doesn't really go down.

I told my gp who referred me on the 2 week referal urgent cancer, since she said that I felt like I couldn't swallow anything, like I've forgot how to do it naturally , but I have to chew my food a 1000 times and I'm still scarde to swallow. When I do I feel like it sits in the bottom of my throat for ages, if I push like force a burp it comes back up. I am convinced I have cancer . I'm so scarde it's not getting treated because everyone thinks it's just anxiety.

So in the 2 weeks I went for a transnasal endscopy , I was so anxious it only got to my throat and I started freaking out .The endscopy had to be abandoned and an urgent ct was ordered.

A week later I went for my ct and my anxious mind took over I refused the contrast. So I had a regular ct from throat to pelvic. The radiographer explained without the contrast it would be sub optimal and smaller things could be missed. I feel like such a failure not being able to mamge the procedures I need.

My ct results came back clear so the 2 week cancer team discharged me from them, my gp says I don't have cancer but my swallowing seems so bad and I can't help thinking the ct missed something . Also I spoke to a lady my age with esopgeal cancer has a feeding tube because she can't eat anymore, she was diognosed with endscopy but her ct was clear.

This makes me terrified and I really don't know what to do xxxx