I feel like no one cares

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Hi, I’m new to the site and forums. I’m still waiting for the type of blood cancer I have, but was told by the consultant it is blood cancer. I’ve had thick blood for a few years but my health has recently got worse so doctors did more tests. 
My family and friends knew about my thick blood but I would reassure I’d be ok. However since my diagnosis and telling my close family and friends they seem to be denial, they don’t ask if I’m ok, or how I’m dealing with it, they don’t say anything really, they just continue with everyday topics and texts, and continue to tell me there issues. I hope they are in denial because the alternative of them not caring is breaking me. When I first time them it was like I told them I had flu, no one called me to talk or popped in for a cuppa. My husband has been my rock so I’m so grateful I have him but I also need my sister and best friend but they don’t seem to care. The heartbreaking thing is I’m the first one to jump in the car to give them a cuddle or if I can’t get there I’ll call or Uber eats a box of chocolates. 
sorry this is so long, it’s the first time I’ve written this worry of mine. 
Has anyone been through something like this? And I being selfish for wanting more support, to be a priority the way I priority my friends and family in my life?

thank you for your time reading this xx

  • Hi  and welcome to the Macmillan Community but so sorry to hear about your ongoing diagnosis.

    I am Mike and I help out across our various blood cancer groups. I have been on my Lymphoma journey for over 25 years….. Sorry to hear about the challenges you are having with your friends and family…… unfortunately how they are reacting often happens….. as many people just don’t know what to do or what to say…… so end up doing nothing.

    Navigating the blood cancer journey can be such a stressful and challenging time but getting support from others who are dealing with the ‘exact same' cancer type can help a lot.

    This New to Community area is like our reception desk where we look to direct you to the best part of the Community for you to get support.

    The Community is actually divided into dedicated Cancer Support Groups (Discussion Rooms) so once you get a clear diagnosis do look through this link Cancer Specific Groups you will find all our dedicated blood cancer support groups listed.

    These groups are safe places to talk to others who may have a similar diagnosis, treatment experience, to ask questions and get support from members who are navigating the exact same journey.

    The Macmillan Support Line is open between 8am-8pm (timings may differ across services) 7 days a week on 0808 808 00 00…… this service provides cancer information, practical information, emotional support, benefits/financial guidance or just a listening ear.

    Do get back to me if you need further help or just want to chat.

    Mike (Thehighlander)

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  • Hi  

    I’m so sorry that you feel this way, it’s so hard to be in the waiting period as it is but if you feel like you aren’t getting the support you need that’s an additional stress that you don’t need.

    All I can do is give the viewpoint of someone trying to support a family member going through a cancer diagnosis. I often don’t know what to say - is it better to keep things as “normal” as possible or keep bringing up the elephant in the room? For the person I’m supporting, talking about the cancer has to be on their terms, if I bring it up when they are not ready to talk it gets dismissed. 


    My advice would be to talk to your sister and your friend about how they can help you. You are absolutely not selfish for needing the support, I just wonder if those people who are always there for others are seen as self sufficient with an assumption that they will just get on with it. Don’t let it fester

    Wishing you a speedy diagnosis and swift treatment x

  • I’m going through this 2 found out at NY I have lymphoma had my scan but still waiting to hear what type .I have an Autistic teenager teenager who depends on me and this is such a scary place to be . I know what you mean it can feel lonely and everyone is getting on with thier lives whilst ours have been turned upside down ,I could use a C friend on my journey sounds like you could too.

    pam x

  • Hi, thank you so much for replying. It really helped to see and read from the other persons perspective. As I’m very close to my sister and best friend of 25 years I know my news was a shock, I’m always the go to person, they usually come to me for advice so I know it must be hard for them too. I will speak to them soon about it but may just keep it low key for now till my next appt in March. They still haven’t asked how I’m doing, but from your reply they might be waiting for me to say something first. 
    I think my heartache is still there from when I found out it was cancer and no one made an effort. I’ll just need to try and get over that. 
    thank you again for your kind words and support, it really means a lot. I hope you’re coping too, take care x

  • Hiya, so sorry to hear of your situation too, being in limbo is just horrible isn’t it. I have 3 autistic nephews so I understand. Is frustrating as I can see all sides to my situation, but it still breaks my heart, I try and be there for all my friends but when I just got a a couple texts after my news I felt so deflated. A reply to my post has made me think though as I now understand how my friends and family may be feeling. Personally having cancer was a shock but it’s the way it plays with your emotions that has shocked me the most. 

    We are in limbo at the moment but in time we’ll get a diagnosis and a treatment plan, we can’t do anything till then.
    Maybe we need to take a few days at a time, we will be ok xx take care xx

  • Yes . It’s all a bit frightening the unknown. You sound like a natural giver and people pleaser I’m like that too. I think people don’t realise how vulnerable we feel just now .Although I’ve always had deep compassion for people loved ones going through cancer you don’t really get it til it’s you .

    i think we need a lot of reassurance at the moment from our family friends it’s only natural and it can hurt when we think they aren’t showing that love .

    we are facing the unknown and I constantly feel like I’m in limbo.

    Hope you get the love and support you need .

    Anytime you want to talk I’m here .

    I had my biopsies start of December my diagnosis at NY and my first scan last week so I think I’ve still got a bit of a wait . 
    Pam x