Awaiting breast cancer diagnosis

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Hi all, this isn’t something I thought I’d be doing less than a week ago but here we are! I found a breast lump last week and have since been for a check4cancer consultation. At the appointment the Consultant tried to aspirate fluid from the lump but there was none.I was then sent for mammograms on both breasts and an ultra sound on the breast with the lump.Whilst laying on the bed having the ultrasound,the radiography told me he thought there was a second lump! Both are currently under 1cm and he took 8 biopsies,4 from each and placed a marker on the one he found as this one isn’t detectable by touch.He told me I have cancer! I wasn’t prepared for that! I wasn’t even dressed when he said it! I’m now waiting for an appointment on 11th Dec for the results of the biopsies and I’m petrified! Any advise on how to get through that next week would be greatly appreciated.Im currently trying not to google which is hard.The fact he found a second lump has freaked me out as I now keep thinking does that meant it spread! I am a single mum with a 15 year old son who needs me and I can’t help thinking about the worst case scenarios.I keep bursting into tears all the time,I feel panicky and overwhelmed..

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    FormerMember

    Hi Dorset79 welcome to the forum. I am so sorry to hear how worried that you are. The Radiographer cannot tell if things are Cancer they can only tell what may look suspicious or different. They often find other lumps in Mammograms or ultrasound which can't be felt. Mine for example was very deep in my breast and I had no clue it was there until I had the mammogram. These could yet turn out to be not Breast Cancer but even if it does having two lumps does not mean a spread. There is absolutely no reason to expect that that lovely young son of yours will be dancing with his lovely mum.until he is an old man himself. Most Breast Cancers are treatable now and if this is what it turns out to be we will be with you and here for you every step of the way. So dry those tears Cry it is overwhelming and scarey and that's OK. The only thing I would say is try to keep super duper busy whilst you wait..sending some huge big hugs your way for now. 

  • Thank you so much for replying.I feel like I’m drowning a bit.I keep snapping at people. That care about me.I know they mean well but I just feel so totally out of control.Your response is comforting so thank you for taking the time to reply x 

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    FormerMember in reply to Dorset79

    It's a scarey and uncertain and it is totally outwith our control. However, hang in there and people that know you and live you will understand that's why you are being as you are and it's OK xxxx