I have Anal Cancer and I am starting combined chemoradiotherapy in 2 weeks.
To be honest I am really scared, but don't feel able to express that often to friends.
My boyfriend finished with me just before the formal diagnosis came though, and I feel like I've been hit by a truck most days.
I feel very lonely although I am blessed with a wonderful group of friends. I just didn't think I'd be single and dealing with this.
I can't work out whether I'm crying because I'm heartbroken or because of the cancer.
Hi Yardbird and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
It must be incredibly hard to discover that you have cancer and at the same time deal with the breakdown of your relationship.
The online community is divided into different support groups so I'm going to recommend that you join the anal cancer group where you can ask questions, share experiences and get support from others who will understand what you're going through.
To join, just click on the link I've created and, once you've joined, you can start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
It would be great if you could put something about your diagnosis and proposed treatment into your profile as it really helps others when replying to you and also when looking for someone on a similar pathway. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.