I was diagnosed with breast cancer in my left breast in march 23 I had a lumpectomy in may 23 but they found more cancer further round my breast so I had a mastectomy no reconstruction in July 23 I’m due back in 2 weeks as I’ve got an issue with symptoms in my right breast now so I could probably have it in there now but don’t know that yet
My husband has been amazing in caring for me supporting me and loving me unconditionally I couldn’t have got this far without him
my head is a mess I was masking all my feelings and thoughts over being diagnosed with breast cancer then the 2 operations but a few weeks ago it’s like a train has hit me and the emotions feelings anger has all come out
there are days where I’m in tears don’t know what to do or think I know this must be having an impact on my husband but he doesn’t show it I hide it from my boys they know mum is upset but they stay away and give me space
im so worried about losing my husband over this that I may become to much for him
i also worry constantly that someone will come along better looking and healthier and not a mess that will try and take my husband away from me
my husband tells me it’s irrational that he loves me unconditionally and will never leave me but that doesn’t seem to rid me of my worries
I have dreams when I manage to sleep of my immortality over cancer and him being with someone else
It seems no only did the cancer make me lose my breast it made me lose all self belief and worth
does anybody else feel like this ? Does it get better as right now I can’t seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel
me and my husband have been married 19 years and I want nothing more that many many more years with him
Hi Plummymummy and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
Having a cancer diagnosis affects both us and all the people around us and it's natural to have worries.
The online community is divided up into different support groups so I'm going to recommend that you join the breast cancer group, which is a great place to ask questions, share experiences and get support from others with this type of cancer.
To join, just click on the link I've created and, once you've joined, you can start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
It would be great if you could pop something about your diagnosis and treatment into your profile as it really helps others when replying to you and also when looking for someone on a similar pathway. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.
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