Feelings

8 months ago I posted on here how low I was feeling and I suppose wallowing in self pity, work that I loved finished me on ill health just before Christmas  last year, I knew this was inevitable but still came as a shock, I felt worthless and lost, I have stage 3 high grade serrous ovarian cancer, been through the mill as haven't we all in one way and another! Currently on Niraparib  and have been since September 2022, I've faired quite well on it, although in the beginning of taking it had a dreadful headache for a month and anaemia, I have regular reviews with the oncology team and apparently I'm still cancer free, last ct scan in July  confirmed this and that i have a small hernia just above my belly button, I'm dreading the Niraparb stopping in a years time, still sometimes consumed with the thoughts of dying from this ( lost my brother to prostrate cancer March 2021) he was just 61, I found myself a hobby I love, I get out more,  I have an allotment which to me is therapy, after an horrendous 2022 from  pulmonary embolism to diagnosis  ascites drains and surgery, I'm more positive, ca125 is stable at 9.6 and I feel as if I'm getting a 2nd chance at life.

I know everyone's journey is different and outcomes not always good we all have our demons too, I just wanted to send you all something positive, I'm wishing everyone a good outcome we’ve all had a long  mind and body destroying journey...

Love ️  from Rose

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