Waiting for diagnosis and really scared

Hello, 

Firstly I want to start off by apologising if I come across as insensitive as I appreciate a lot of people here have had a cancer diagnosis and I haven't. I'm experiencing a lot of symptoms and I'm scared to death about my outlook but have no one to turn to or speak to so wanted to reach out to for help/advice on this forum.

I'm worried that I might have bladder/cervical cancer and it has spread.

Bladder symptoms - re-occurring UTI's (I literally just had one last month and now have another), always have blood in my urine samples even with no infection present as well as white blood cells, have had my flow measured and been told it's really slow and also been told that my bladder is sitting low. 

Cervical symptoms - abnormal amount of yellowy discharge, recently experienced brown discharge mid cycle, cervix is inflamed and the area where I had a polyp removed is raised/thickened? I did do a smear test recently and I was negative for HPV but many are diagnosed even when HPV negative so it doesn't give me much reassurance. 

I also have really bad lower back pain and right side pelvic pain where I need to sleep with a heat pad every night.

I always get told that it's normal to have a bit of blood in urine samples, same with the discharge (even though I tell my GP that I have to wear a pad) so I never questioned it, which looking back is quite silly. I know seeking for answers on Dr Google is bad but I can't help myself, I'm like a moth drawn to the light. I read some people are diagnosed with just blood in their urine or abnormal discharge and that terrifies me as my symptoms have been going on for many years but seems to have exacerbated in recent months? I'm terrified that I have some sort of cancer and it has spread or at an advanced stage.

It's been a real struggle to get referred for tests at my local surgery, they always say I'm too young (I'm 35) and that my symptoms are normal or that it is because I'm stressed. I decided to go private through work but the wait is equally just as long. It's taking a couple of weeks to get a consultation, then another couple of weeks to get the test done and then another couple of weeks to get a follow up consultation then another couple of weeks for any further tests then follow up - not sure why tests/scans can't be given at the same time?!

I'm seeing a private urologist and was finally booked in to have a cystoscopy this Friday but it may be delayed because of my UTI I'm due to see a gynaecologist on Friday but that's just an initial consultation. 

I've also gone to A&E when the pain got too much but they put it down to UTI, they just do a blood and urine test and send me home.

It's funny how it's advised that you catch cancers early as it's more treatable but it seems like it takes some people many months/year to get a diagnosis.

I feel depressed, desperate and scared, I have two girls aged 5 and 7 who I want to see grow up.

I know no one can diagnose me on here so I'm not sure why I'm writing this tbh.