On Thursday we were informed that my husband had stage 4 colon cancer which has spread to lymph nodes in liver and to his lungs as well. This is after fighting since last august with him being unwell to get him sorted.
I’m being the strong one in the family but on my own I am literally breaking apart. I suffer from severe depression, GAD, OCD and awaiting assessment for autism
we have a 12 year old who is autistic and a 9 month old who has triggered my OCD ( will become clear why here in a moment)
we spent 2 days at the hospital getting told the information then being admitted the next day as they found a blood clot which they wanted to sort before they can do any kind of treatment. I am there in a mask for my protection as been classed high risk through covid cause of my asthma. Yesterday I am diagnosed with chest infection and then today I test positive for covid!
husband and baby now at the in laws so they don’t catch anything. I haven’t really seen baby since Wednesday and hubby since Friday.
between the ocd and the diagnosis and I guess the general feeling sorry myself that I am ill, I have literally spent the last 2 hours crying my heart out, still being so positive in any messages I gst. I honestly do not know how to cope with it all. This year just feels so bad and it’s only just beginning 
Hi Random and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
I'm sorry to read that your husband has recently been diagnosed with bowel cancer which has spread to his liver and lungs. I know what a difficult time this will be for the whole family and feeling that you can't cope is a common feeling.
As you know, the online community is divided up into different support groups and I can see that you've already found and joined the bowel cancer group. I'm sure you'll find that the other group members there will be only to happy to answer any questions you might have and to share their experiences with you.
You might also want to look at joining and posting in the carers only group as you'll then connect with others who are looking after someone who is living with cancer. It's a very supportive group where you can share your worries and emotions.
To join, just click on the link I've created which will take you to the group. You can then start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'. To save you typing all this out again I'm sure you'll be aware that you can simply copy and paste it into your new post.
It would be great if you could pop something about your husband's diagnosis and treatment so far into your profile as it really helps others when replying to you and also when looking for someone on a similar pathway. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.
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