Hello
I'm not quite sure what I'm looking for here but felt the need to connect with people who can relate as people I know have absolutely no idea. The struggle is definitely real so thought it might be an idea to join for the sake of my sanity!
I lost my partner 12 weeks ago to secondary oesophageal cancer that returned in the bone. I am just at a complete loss and with Christmas coming up it's even worse. Have I even processed it yet??? I'm stuck in time with my rollercoaster of emotions with no motivation to go on.
It even feels sad joining and writing this knowing so many people are in similar or other awful life situations due to this cruel illness. Sending strength and positive vibes to each and every one of you.
Hi PBD7 and a welcome to the Online Community but so sorry to hear about the lose of your partner, my sincere condolences.
This is such a challenging and stressful time for you but I do hope you will find the Community a safe place to get support from folks who are navigating the same journey.
As you have found out the Community is divided into support groups (discussion rooms) and I do see that you have found and joined our very supportive Bereaved spouses and partners support group where you will connect with others navigating the same journey.
The Macmillan Support Line is open from 8am-8pm (timings may differ across services) 7 days a week on 0808 808 00 00 where you can talk with someone about practical information, get emotional support, benefits/financial guidance or just connect with a listening ear. We also have our Ask an Expert section but do allow a few working days for a reply.
Talking to people face to face can be very helpful so do check to see if you have any Local Macmillan Support in your area, do also check for a local Maggie's Centre as these folks are amazing and aim to give support to all the family.
Please do get back to me if you need further help.
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