Hi I have had 2 Colonoscopies recently. After the first one I was told I had nothing to worry about but would need a second one to remove some polyps (I am on blood thinners) I had been warned this was a possibility. The first colonoscopy was in August. The polypectomy was the arranged in October but at this one I was told that they couldn't remove some if the polyps and the doctor performing it as he was pretty sure there are signs if cancer. Everything now seems to be going really fast. I have had bloods taken, a CT scan and an MRI. I now have a general surgery appointment on Tuesday. I feel pretty numb. I haven't told anybody apart from my partner. Just about managing to work. So anxious, finding it hard to sleep and finding it hard to eat. Thought I would wait till after the appointment so I might be a bit more clear about what is going to happen before I start telling people. I don't feel in control and worry about how a cancer diagnosis might effect my loved one. I know it will effect me but I feel once I know what's going to happen I will find it easier to talk to people about it. Just feel I need to talk and have talked to my partner a bit - I am sure this must be effecting him. I think we are both trying to put on a brave face and keep things as normal as possible. I just feel in limbo as I am not clear what will happen next. Between Google and my own thoughts I have been through hundreds of possibilities!
Thanks to anybody who takes the time to read this!
Hi Geminipi and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
I'm sorry to read about everything you've been going through up until now and everyone here will understand how you're feeling right now.
As the online community is divided up into different support groups, I'm going to recommend that you join and post in the bowel cancer group, not because I think you have cancer, but because you'll then connect with others who have been where you are now and who can offer you support.
To join just click on the link I've created which will take you directly there. You can then join and start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
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