I am absolutely heartbroken. After a three month fight with cancer my husband is now on end of life care in the hospice. He is having seizures now and as from today is being sedated. I have been by his side every day but really don't want to be there when he passes. I don't want his death to be my last memory of him but am feeling a tremendous guilt that I I feel this way.
Hi and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
I'm sorry to read about your husband and I can understand your feelings.
As the online community is divided up into different support groups I'm going to recommend that you join and post in the supporting someone with incurable cancer group which is for carers, friends and families of people with a terminal diagnosis to discuss their emotions about the prospect of losing their loved ones as well as practical issues around palliative care.
To join just click on the link I've created and then join and post in the same way as you did here. You can also join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
If you have any difficulty navigating the community just drop me a reply and I'll be pleased to help.
Sending a very big (((hug)))
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