Possible cancer... feeling a fraud here

FormerMember
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Hello lovely people here, I've had a little look around but not sure if I should even be here. 

I don't have any diagnosis of cancer yet but feeling quite scared and lonely at the moment. I have my friend joking about the size of my stomach, talking about when my due date is and if I used a turkey baster etc. But inside I'm quite scared.

My Dad was diagnosed with blood cancer just under 3 months ago, my friend with thyroid cancer the same week, and with all the upset of that I've not taken too much notice of myself. I have lots of chronic illnesses and autoimmune illnesses so am usually fatigued and in pain anyway.  Over the last 6/9months I have experienced terrible bloating when I eat, even though I don't always eat meals. This has got much worse over that timespan to the point that the bloating only goes away a little when sleeping or getting up in a morning it's slightly reduced, after drinking water to take tablets it is huge and hard again. I never feel hungry and it is now painful when I do so. My doctor treat me for an impacted bowel but is now thinking ovarian cancer, I go for bloods on Monday and he is booking a scan too as over this last six weeks my stomach is so bloated I look 9month pregnant and about to deliver a big baby! I can't eat, and am struggling with the pain and discomfort. It's impossible to wear a bra, and I feel ready to bust. I know how funny it looks to others but I'm actually quite scared..

Sorry for the long introduction and welcome anyone telling me that I'm in the wrong place or wrong forum. I feel like a fraud when  so many others are struggling with much worse. Justlooking for advice, without being laughed at, sorry if I shouldn't be here

  • Hi and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.

    It's natural to be scared at the thought of a possible cancer diagnosis and I'm sorry to read how much pain you're in at the moment.

    As the online community is divided up into different support groups I'm going to recommend that you join and post in the ovarian cancer group, not because I think you have this type of cancer, but because it will give you the chance to talk to others who can share their experiences with you.

    To join just click on the link I've created and then join and post in the same way as you did here. You can also join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.

    If you have any difficulty navigating the community just drop me a reply and I'll be pleased to help

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    FormerMember in reply to latchbrook

    Thank you so much for your kind welcome, I'll have a look at the group you copied in. I've only just joined and am a bit lost to be honest so I'll try that group, thank you again xx

  • If you need any help I'm happy to help.

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