I'm not sure where to start with this. Never thought I would find myself in this kind of forum. Life is full of surprises and sadly they aren't always nice ones. I was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer which has spread to my lymph nodes, lung and bones. It's quite aggressive and I've had chemotherapy and am still having treatment now but have also found myself struggling mentally as well. I had a breakdown when I was 18 and since then I've really struggled mentally and this has just pushed me the over the edge. Last year I was detained because of my thoughts for 2 months, whilst still having to have treatment. It was an awful time. I'm not great now but I'm not suicidal at the moment. I am really lucky to have the support of my husband, he is my rock and gives me so much love and support and I'm blessed to be mum to my beautiful little angel Paige. Seeing her little smile and innocent nature every day makes life worth living for me. She and Matt are why I keep going, keep fighting this terrible journey. I am a bit worried I'm not going to get better. Though I was suicidal I really don't want to die but the treatment isn't working, tumours keep growing and the cancer keeps spreading. But I'm holding on to hope. I'm trying to keep upbeat and do things, taking Paige to the park on nice days and playing with her in the house. She's 3 now and so lovely, really sweet girl. Though she does chew me lol. I am finding myself getting more and more tired now and I sadly lost my hair. But I'm hoping soon I'll get a bit stronger and start winning the fight against my cancer.
Hi and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
It sounds like you have been through and are still going through a great deal so it's great that your husband is such a support to you and you have the love of your daughter.
The online community is divided up into different support groups so I'm going to recommend that you join the secondary breast cancer group which is a great place to ask questions, share experiences and get support from others whose breast cancer has spread.
Clicking on the link I've created will take you to the group where you can then join and post in the same way as you did here. You can also join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
It would be great if you could pop something about your diagnosis and treatment into your profile as it really helps others when replying to you and also when looking for someone on a similar pathway. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.
If you have any difficulty navigating the community just drop me a reply and I'll be pleased to help
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