Hello,
My diagnosis is Merkyl cell carcinoma but doctors can't find the primary tumor. It showed up invading lymph nodes in my neck. It has moved into my salivary glands and both armpits. There is another lump on my right carotid artery. Other than the psychological mind spin of having an incurable, deadly cancer, I feel fine.
The doctor wants to throw some keytruda at it, but reading the clinical trial, their definition if success seems to be 20% of the participants had their cancer stop or tumors shrink over the 2 year study. No cures, 80% failure with 100% adverse side effects with the 20% pretty much right back where they started before the study.... I decided I feel great and live each day with love and purpose until I can't.
Hi Stop Plastic Pollution and welcome to the Online Community although so sorry to hear about your diagnosis, being told you have live with an incurable cancer is a mindset.... I have been on my incurable journey for over 22 years so I do understand...... but I do hope you will find lots of comfort and support here on the Online Community.
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Hi Stop Plastic Pollution and a second welcome to the online community
In addition to the groups that my friend Mike Thehiglander has recommended could I also suggest that you join us over in the skin cancer group where you'll find a few people who have this type of skin cancer. That's assuming that the Merkyl cell carcinoma you mention is also known as merkel cell carcinoma.
If you'd like to join the skin cancer group clicking on the link I've created will take you straight there where you can then follow Mike's instructions on how to join, post and reply.
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Thank you for the added guidance and focus. I will join the skin cancer group.
So right, merkel cell is the correct spelling.
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