I don't know where to start but my mom passed away in my arms 2wks ago today, and I have all this emotions, I know deep down in my heart she's no longer here but in my head, she's is still here, I feel her presence round me, I go looking for her, still try to call but when I come to, I break down sobbing,
The last few hrs I spent with her I rubbed her foot has she had cramp, she couldn't hold her head up has she has neckache, she was out of breath and drooling,
From hearing the death rattle, her last few beats of her heart she died. My mom had terminal cancer but her heart stopped..
Does the grieving get easier.. 
We haven't had the funeral yet.. I just don't know what to do any more.. My mom was my best friend, and all that's left is this massive hole...
Hi and a very warm welcome to the online community
I'm really sorry to read that your mom passed away recently and it's perfectly natural to feel as you do.
As the online community is divided up into different support groups I'm going to recommend that you join the bereaved family and friends group which is for anyone who has lost a family member or friend to cancer to share their feelings and support one another
To join just click on the link I've created and then choose 'click to join' or 'join' (depending on the device you're using) on the page that opens. You can then introduce yourself and post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
If you have any difficulty navigating the community just drop me a reply and I'll be pleased to help.
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