Cervical cancer

Hi my name candice I am new to all this 

My head scrambled growing up I always said and thought I'd never go threw this but years later here I am

So few years ago I woke up 1 morning not feeling very clever in my self went to the toilet and was in a lot of pain and there was a lump as I wipe myself I went to my doctors who took some test from down there and referred me on to a cancer clinic in my area they did what they did when they went inside and gave me the all clear I was thankfull

Few years have gone by and I've moved area got in stable reaktionship and got caught pregnant few months before Xmas just gone but things didn't seem right was in agony and bleeding all the time got check everything seemed fine with baby then 2 weeks before Xmas I went on school run alone for my son and didn't feel right ended up collopsing went to doctors got told not to worry me and baby was fine but I was getting worse I knew this wasn't normal so took my self A&E they did a scan was 12 weeks but my babies heart had stop lost it new years eve

But this feeling weak tired collopsing carried on then month later I bleed so heavy for 19 days again doctor told me was fine not to worry then it stop for 4 days on the 5th day was lay on couch with my partner and broke it to tears told him I feel like I have cancer I can feel it in me he said stopping being silly ur find hour later I was lay in pool of blood this went on for 2 days losing clots none stop size of golf balls bleeding getting heavier my doctor not listening so took my self to walk in centre were they look inside see what was going on and this is where my journey became real they sat me in a room told me they had found a very large growth had to go hospital because it was bleeding and they was very worried off I went to A&E had bloods come bk if lost well to much blood had 3 blood transfuction more blood going in more I bleed out I got told they think I've got cancer it broke me

Days later went for colpsy they took byopsy she said she wasn't concerned off home I went I waited weeks for ths results feeling unwell tired weak not eating barley my life felt like it was going infront of me  then the letter came I had serve cin3 precanveroues cells they wanted to do loop goes in they tryed to do it I was in agony they told me I'd need a op the precanceroues cells had covered my cervix was months away from possible cancer on 24 Aug had the op was successful they said

Then last week I gets a call asking me to go in to clinic today they need to discuss things further so I goes in today and they told me the precanceroues cells been there 5 plus years and when they did the op they found cancer they had cut it out but precanceroues cells still remain and there really worried cancer still present to so got to have emerg op 

As anyone elsa had this bcoz I feel alone scared like my life falling apart don't feel real am annixous depressed please someone talk to me please I beg u