Hi
My mum was always terrified of cancer since watching her mum die over a few months with a very aggressive ovarian cancer when I was little. Three years ago she was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive brain tumour. Surgery, chemo and radiotherapy didn't stop it. She struggled on past her given life expectancy, but in the end I watched her die through a window at arms length over a few months in a nursing home during lockdown #1. I still miss her loads, she was my rock. Always practical and willing to help.
Monday I have an appointment with a gynae. The letter came through to say it's because of potential cancer. I know I don't have a diagnosis so maybe I shouldn't be here. But I'm not sleeping and keep dreaming about leaving my young kids who have additional needs without their mum. It's hard enough losing your mum when you are a grown woman.
My mum couldn't have the operation due to other health considerations, but my aunts were told to get their ovaries out. I had terrible conceiving and a molar pregnancy. I've struggled in recent years with an auto immune disease and a chronic pain condition. I can't help but think my female parts have never worked right, I've got a family history and I'm not exactly a picture of health, I'm afraid of the path I feel this is going down.
Hi and warm welcome to the Macmillan Online Community although sorry that you had to find us and especially sorry to hear about your ongoing health issues. Cancer in the family does make our minds focus on the 'what if's?' but good that you are moving forward and getting yourself checked out.
Should you find yourself on a cancer journey talking with others who are walking the same type of cancer treatment journey will help you navigate this challenging time.
The Community has various support groups so once you know what is going on do look through our list of Cancer specific groups, once you find your cancer type group do join a group by using 'click to join' or 'join' (depending on the device you're using) on the page that opens.
You can then introduce yourself by putting up a ‘New Thread’ or hit the box with the X on the top right (phones). You can also join in with existing ‘Discussions’ by clicking on 'reply'.
It’s always good to talk and the Macmillan Support Services provides lots of information, support or just a listening ear.
Most services are open 8am to 8pm, 7 days a week and it's free to call on 0808 808 00 00 have a look by Clicking here to see what is available and we also have our Ask an Expert section, but do allow two working days for replies from our expert team.
To find information covering diagnosis, treatments and pages covering most types of cancers can be found on our Online Information and Support Section.
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