Hi, new to the group.
Very bad symptoms of oesophagus cancer, I'm going foe endoscopy and colonoscopy next week.
I feel there won't be anything they could do. And at times I feel I better get a heart attack and die. Can't take it any more, the pains are such , my throat my voice. Won't be able to face it and though I don't want euthanasia, a heart attack, I had one before, might be easier. I'm crying for my family, can't sleep, the pains won't let me
Hi and warm welcome to the Macmillan Online Community although sorry that you had to find us and especially sorry to hear about you going through a cancer diagnosis.
I remember well when I first heard the word ‘blood cancer’ and started getting all my affairs in order...... that was in 1999 and all the stuff is collecting busy on a shelf. Let’s not get ahead of yourself, find out what this is and talk with your medical professionals to see what is going on and what needs done..... you need to understand the cancer is far more treatable then every before with good results.
A cancer diagnosis brings many questions, confusion and lots of stress but talking with others who are walking the same type of cancer journey will help you navigate this challenging time.
The Community is organised into support groups so can I recommend you join our supportive Gullet (oesophagus) cancerrain tumour group, this will be a good place to connect with patients and families navigating the same type of diagnostic journey.
To join a group just click on the link above then choose 'click to join' or 'join' (depending on the device you're using) on the page that opens.
You can then introduce yourself by putting up a ‘New Thread’ or hit the box with the X on the top right (phones), you could just copy and paste the text from this your first post. You can also join in with existing ‘Discussions’ by clicking on 'reply'.
I think it may help you if you call our and the Macmillan Support Line as it provides lots of information, support or just a listening ear.
Most services are open 8am to 8pm, 7 days a week and it's free to call on 0808 808 00 00 have a look by Clicking here to see what is available and we also have our Ask an Expert section, but do allow two working days for replies from our expert team.
To find information covering diagnosis, treatments and pages covering most types of cancers can be found on our Online Information and Support Section.
All the very best
Hi again the word ‘cancer’ unfortunately plays with the space between the ears. Once I took control of that battle I was able to navigate the bumps in my 21+ years journey..... as you have looked at my profile you will see I was facing a bleak prognosis back in 2013.... but there was never a moment that I accepted that I would not get through this and so will you.
I do think it would be good for you to talk with our amazing team on the Support Line as that will help you unpack the whirlwind between your ears.
When you arrive on the cancer path we see two signs placed the length of the path.
One sign points to Pessimism, a mindset that always sees the worst will happen, not appreciating that cancer is now very treatable, where stress and worry controls every aspect of your life and as a result the journey is made extremely hard and draining.
The other sign points to Optimism, a mindset that is full of hopefulness, determination, confidence about the future and appreciates that cancer is now very treatable. It’s important to continually seek to choose the optimistic direction as this simple thing can define how you walk the cancer journey.
........ I know where I stand on the path..... it’s up to you where you are going to choose to stand.
Happy to talk more.
