Feel stupid

Hi Tomus and a warm welcome to the Online Community, a Community that no one really looks to see themselves joining, and so sorry to hear about your ongoing health concerns. Never feel stupid when it comes to dealing with and talking about your health.

You are doing the correct things and let’s look for results to be good and a solution is found for you.

You may find it helpful to talk with other people who are on the same type of journey as this can help you a lot and get a better understanding of what you are facing.

The Community is organised into support groups and I see you have joined our supportive Bowel (colon and rectum) cancer group, this is the place where you will connect with others walking the treatment journey both as patient or family and get an understanding from folks who have walked the diagnosis walk.

Follow the above link introduce yourself, post questions or just  join in with existing discussions by clicking on 'reply'. 

It’s always good to talk and the Macmillan Support Services provides lots of information, support, financial guidance or just a listing ear.

Most services are open 8am to 8pm, 7 days a week and it's free to call on 0808 808 00 00 have a look by Clicking here to see what is available and we also have our Ask an Expert section, but do allow two working days for replies from our expert team.

Our Online Information and Support Section  is a good place to find information covering diagnosis, treatments and pages covering most types of cancers.

All the very best.

Thank you so much Mike. I have joined the group for CRC group. I really appreciate having some where to ask questions. Thank you. 

Hi Mike. 
Colonoscopy today and not such great results. Quite a large tumour between rectum and anus. They think it is likely to be cancerous although I await biopsy results. I feel weirdly alive and conversely terrified/guilty. Yet again, feel like fraud. All a bit of a head ****!

Sorry to hear this news Tomus, as I had a comply different cancer do set up a post in the Bowel (colon and rectum) cancer group.

All the very best.

Hi Tomus. I normally lurk on the Bowel Cancer board but noticed your post so thought I’d say hi. I see you’ve joined the page so feel free to list whenever you’re ready or just have a read. We’re a friendly lot and all at different stages of treatment/recovery. 

You’re right - it’s a total head**** but it’s also very treatable. The waiting for results, scans, meetings etc. is very stressful but (assuming it is cancer) once you have a treatment plan in place then things feel a little better. Stay away from google - it is out of date and downright scary in places. If you click on people’s names then their profile page may show their journey so far although you might need a cup of tea to hand if you plough through mine!

Hope to see you over on the other board

Take care

Karen x

ps size does not matter! A large tumour is not necessarily more serious than a small one - mine was 9cm in from my anus and 4cm in size but shrank to 1cm after chemoradiotherapy 

Thank you so much Karen. Your point about size is really helpful. I’ve been told the tumour is about 5cm and goes between anus and rectum. That worries me quite a bit. I am imagining not having an anus after surgery and that doesn’t sound great. 

You’re welcome . There is an operation called APR (abdominal perineal Resection) where the anus is removed and the hole sewn up - affectionally known as a barbie butt - and there’s a few on here had it done. However I would wait until you’ve had your results and any scans then see what the action plan is. Tough times ahead but you’re young with a lot of years ahead of you yet so I’m sure you’ll cope with whatever comes your way

Keep us posted and feel free to ask anything - there’s nothing too daft or embarrassing!

Karen x