Diagnosed on saturday petrified.

FormerMember over 4 years ago

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Hello

Never ever used a site like this before. Found out from ultrasound I have two obvious tumours. Immediately given a biopsy and added to oncologist's this Friday - so scared as know I am on the cusp between stage 2 and 3 as one tumour is 4.8mm and the radiologist made a rather ambiguous comment when I asked about the lymph nodes just saying "You have some normal healthy nodes there" - what about the others? Daughter at uni and can't come home. Can't eat cant sleep - Nursed mum with breast cancer and she died last year - even found myself sitting in the same chair.

GRANNY59 over 4 years ago

Hi Duffy 11 and welcome to the forum. Sorry that you have had to find us but glad that you have as lots of support and kindred spirits around to support you.

Its a scarey time for you right now and that waiting is the pits but please do come on and chat as much or as little as you like it will help to pass the time until Friday for you. They will be able to give you all the details on Friday as they will have the results from the biopsies the stage of the cancer, the type of Breast Cancer and a treatment plan for you so you will have much more detail on Friday. I know things are somewhat different at present with Covid but I wondered if you could take someone with you to see the Oncologist as sometimes it is hard to take all that is being said in so a second set of ears is always good.

I know it cant be easy with the history of your mum but you are not your mum and there is no reason to expect that you will have a treatment plan that leads to a place where you are free from Cancer and go on to live a full life. You need to keep that uppermost in your mind.

I am inserting a link to the breast cancer forum which if you click on will take you right there and you can post and chat to others who know exactly what and how you are feeling and will be with you for as long as you want them to be.

Sending some huge big hugs your way for now. xx

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FormerMember over 4 years ago in reply to GRANNY59

Thanks - really finding this site difficult to get used to - not good with IT. I also lost an ex sister in law from breast cancer last month and a friend from MS - feeling life is just about pain and dying. Head full of contradictory emotions sheer terror at my situation and an awful calmness that I already "dead" in so many ways. Sorry I mustn't be so maudlin - just wondered if anyone else feels like that Anyway - hope you manage to get some sleep tonight