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Good evening all, 

My partner of 18 months has had news in the past few weeks that his cancer has spread. He was in initially diagnosed 4.5 years ago and has been on very successful treatment but sadly it has stopped working. I don't know how to help. I make soup instead of crying to make sure he gets the right foods in him. I try to be upbeat as if I am sad he tells me to walk away. I don't know how you all do it?? I desperately want to be here for him but he wants me to walk away. How do I navigate this? He is in so much pain, there is nothing i can do aside from making sure he takes the right meds at the right time. I feel so useless. I just wanted to add that if you are reading this, I am so sorry, you must be going through something awful too. x

  • Hi  and welcome to the Online Community, although I am so sorry to see you finding us and so sorry to hear about your partners cancer has returned, this must be hard for you to deal with. You are not useless, you can only do your best at these times and there are no handbooks that can help navigate this.

    You may also find our Carers only, Family and friends and Supporting someone with incurable cancer groups a benefit as you will connect with others supporting family through their cancer journey.

    Follow the links I've created above then choose ‘click to join' on the page that opens.

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    All the very best.

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  • Hi KAJB,

    Sorry to meet you under these circumstances and I am really sorry your partners cancer has spread. I do think you are being far too harsh on yourself. You have already stated you are making sure he is getting the right foods and you're making sure he receives his meds at the correct time, you are supporting him. Please don't think you are being useless, you're not, you are there for your partner and looking after him. I'm sure he is thinking of you even at this difficult time for himself that's why he wants you to walk away, he probably thinks he is protecting you. I can understand where he is coming from but ultimately the choice to end any relationship for any reason should be by mutual consent but there again I am not a counsellor. I hope any future treatment for your partner is successful and I'm quite sure you will find the strength to meet this unfortunate situation head on. Thinking of you both, stay strong & stay positive.

    Take care, Tom