Getting my life back after chemo

I was diagnosed with AML Acute Myeloid Leukaemia suddenly in October 2019. I was fine but tired one day, the next day had blood blisters in my mouth, went to my GP, was sent straight to hospital, was admitted immediately. I had a stroke that night and was blue lighted up to Bristol intensive care from Exeter. I was in ICU for 5 days then in Haematology ward for another 5 days before being transferred back to Exeter hospital. I spent the next 6 months receiving strong chemo in hospital. I got home late March and am now on maintenance tablets for 12 months. I was looking forward to the end of hospital treatment so I could get back to my old life, without 3 times weekly hospital visits. But my 'normal' life isn't here anymore, well it is, but I don't seem to be able to fit back into it. I can't look after my animals myself because of my stroke and have to rely on my husband. He is amazing but I want to be able to do it myself. I have no motivation, find it a struggle to get out of bed, don't want to be awake because I can't cope with not being able to do things. Have no motivation. I should be making the most of everything as I don't know how long I have to remain in remission.