Hi there
I myself have not been diagnosed with cancer but my baby brother was diagnosed with a Brian tumour and passed away on 11 March 2015.
At the time we all just moved through what is needed and we spread his ashes in his favourite surfers paradise where he spent a lot of his teenage years bashing through the waves and generally becoming the king of Muizies for a while.
Anyway here I find myself 5yrs down the road and I am really struggling with my fear of developing the same kind of cancer. When I first moved back to London to the area where he once lived and the pain of wondering where he lived, if he shopped at these shops, who attacked him under the bridge at Raynes Park train station and many many more things.
I initially WANTED to develop brain cancer because my pain was so intense and the journey from leaving my home to settling here was very much an emotional ripping of my soul that I actually wanted to die and yet somehow I managed to find a job and have been blessed with a house filled with fellow South Africans and am thankfully employed by a company that sells South African products.
My reason for reaching out on this group is to ask if anybody also fears developing cancer when their parents or siblings have already passed. And if so how do they deal with these crippling fears.
All suggestions and comments welcome please
Hi @Sandi1966 and welcome to the Online Community, although I am sorry to see you finding us and so sorry to hear you are still struggling with the death of your little brother.
A cancer diagnosis can bring a lot of stress, confusion and many questions but talking with people who are on the same journey can help a lot so can I highlight our very supportive Bereaved family and friends group.
Posting in this group will open up your concerns to a wider group of people who know exactly what you are going through at the moment.
Follow the link I've created, join the group then introduce yourself to the group and post questions after selecting 'start a discussion' and you can also join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
You may want to put some information in your profile as this can help a lot. Click here to see how to add details as this helps everyone to see a little about you and how best to reply to you.
All the very best and a ((hug)) from a safe distance.
