Waiting for tests

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I've been sent for tests within 2 weeks and looking at the NHS webpages, I fear that I'm going to be told that I have cancer of the oesophagus. I'm really scared. Not just about what it means for me, but what it means for my family. I don't know what to do, how to tell my partner. I'm breaking up just typing this 

  • Hi Tony61 Hope you are feeling a bit better today. Even if you're not I just wanted you to know that someone cares about you! I have just had my last counselling session with the proviso that I can go back if I have worries about the tests and results I am due to have in June. Back in September I was in blind panic mode & catastrophising like mad but once I had more facts & someone to talk to I calmed down a bit. For the 2 weeks leading up to my hospital tests I felt physically sick with worry most days. I still have some bad days (like yesterday)  because they can't work out why there is a discrepancy but I do feel better for reaching out for support. You will manage to get through the next week but remember everyone on this forum will understand your anxiety so remember you are not alone

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    FormerMember in reply to JaneAustenfan

    Thank you. Yes I've been better today. Still frightened and still worried about aches and pains but I've managed to keep a lid on it more. The next big challenge is telling my partner - planning to do this on Friday. 

  • Hi Tony61

    Thank you for your reply. Glad you had a better day. It is normal to be frightened & that's ok. Be kind to yourself & try not to put pressure on yourself

    Take care

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  • Hi Tony61

    How are you today?

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    FormerMember in reply to JaneAustenfan

    Thanks for asking. I've been up and down, worrying about new aches and pains and thinking about talking to my partner tomorrow. How are you?

  • Hi Tony am not too bad. Have made some appointments today to go back to the gp to see if they can give me some more help with various aches & pains & also so they can check why I haven't regained the half a stone I lost although my gut feeling is that I lost it due to stress. Work was quite full on & so am having a quiet evening. Thank you for asking. Good luck tomorrow talking to your partner. Let us know how you get on.

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    FormerMember in reply to JaneAustenfan

    I’ve told my partner. She reacted pretty well and was very supportive – she had wondered (to herself) whether some form of cancer was something they might be looking for in the tests. I explained a bit how I have been feeling. That’s done now. I’m going to try to enjoy the weekend and not think (too much) about what’s happening next week.

  • Hi

    I'm glad to see that you've told your partner that you're waiting for tests and explained to her how this is making you feel. I'm sure she'll be a big support to you now that she knows what is happening.

    All the best for your tests on Wednesday. If they're not able to give you the results there and then remember to ask them for a timescale of when you should hear by and how you'll hear, ie by letter or an appointment with a consultant, etc

    Have a good weekend.

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  • Hi Tony I'm so glad you told your partner & that she is supportive. It must be a big relief to you now that it is out in the open. Hope your weekend goes well. 

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    FormerMember in reply to JaneAustenfan

    Thank you