It’s my first Christmas without my lovely man. I feel desperate. I lost him in July prostate cancer he was 52. We were together just three and a half years. I wasn’t there when he died and I feel like I failed him. Since losing him I walked away from my family who I finally told about our same sex relationship. They and so many friends were not there for me. I’m always the one that fixes things. I couldn’t fix this. And no one it seems can deal with the fact that I’m not coping now. I’m really not coping. Maybe it’s just Christmas. But I feel like I will never recover.
Hi and a very warm welcome to the online community
I'm so very sorry to hear that you lost your partner recently. I cannot begin to imagine how that must feel but you've come to the right place for support.
I see that you've already found and joined the bereaved spouses and partners group and I'm sure if you post there you'll find everyone there very supportive. Clicking on the link I've created will take you directly to that group where you could introduce yourself and tell everyone how you feel by clicking on 'start a discussion'.
Sending a gentle ((hug))
"Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience"
