Emotional mess

FormerMember over 5 years ago

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Hi, I’m new to the group. I’m 55 and It’s coming up to a year since my diagnosis of cervical cancer 2B. My treatment plan consisted of Chemo, radiotherapy and brachytherapy. I think I must have robotically went through my treatment as I had no emotions. This past few weeks I have been lost in myself, I don’t know who I am or who I was before. It’s like a total loss of memory which has left me confused, frightened and emotionally wrecked. I have bipolar disorder and am a single parent of a son with autism and my grandson (both in their late teens) has lived with me since birth and suffers from schizophrenia, I am full time carer to them both which makes it very difficult to leave the house. I’ve lost all contact with friends and family due to being a full time carer and I feel alone in my journey to put my emotions in place, find myself and live a normal life after cancer. Thank you for listening x

FormerMember over 5 years ago

Hi Crickybear and welcome to the forum. I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling. You have been through the mill thats for sure and like many of us you put your head down put your own emotions to the side and get on with the treatment because you now that this is the best outcome to get on with the treatment that will make us well again.

However, you are not alone in how you handled things nor are you alone in how you feel now. It also sounds like life has been ongoing stress for you with your own ill health and looking after your family as you do, I bet with little time for you.

First things first you need to make an appointment with your GP and tell them how you are feeling or if you have a contact within the Mental Health team that you feel you could talk with then contact them as well. It may be that some counselling at this point may be of some help for you to express openly how you are feeling and how frightened and confused this leaves you. Could someone be with your family to enable you to go this appointment?

The other thing to do would be to post in the Carers forum on here and see if there are any folks on there who could maybe suggest other things that may be of help for you.

There is an article that I wonder if you might like to read written by a Psychologist, Dr Peter Harvey and is called After the treatment finishes -What next? It really is worth a read if you can access this on the net?

Meantime Im sending some huge big hugs your way for now. xxxx