Dealing with expected death

FormerMember
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Hi, hoping someone may help who’s been through similar. Two years ago my dad was diagnosed with aortic dissection of the heart, kidney failure and bone cancer. Prior to this he already had kidney and a rare blood disease. We were told at the time as he was a complex case they didn’t know how much time he had left and was let home to enjoy his remaining time. During those two years he stayed strong to meet my son one of his main wishes and he battled as hard as he could not baring to part with us. We were extremely close family and still are. It was like living on a knife edge thinking every time could be the last. By Easter this year he had deteriorated and caught an infection ending up in hospital for three weeks where tests confirmed his kidneys were on their final stages and the dissection has reached his neck. He came home and passed away two weeks later at 68. We were all with him when he died but it was still a massive shock. 8 weeks later and I don’t know how I feel bad overwhelmed and so desperate to hear his voice. We were told to get counselling as it had been so long which I’m in the process of waiting for but I don’t feel I can chat much to my family we all seem in different stages. Has anyone experienced a similar situation? Thank you

  • Hello , welcome to the online community, I’m sorry to read your post, it struck a cord with me as I remember how I felt after my Mother’s death (not cancer related) . You are seeking anyone with a similar experience so I thought I would point you in the direction of a group to join on here I’ve put the link below for you to click on where you can join and read the discussions and get notified of new entries, or start your own discussion my perhaps copying and pasting your one above to introduce yourself.

    https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer_experiences/bereaved_friends/discussions

    I went to my Gp and he set about organising counselling for me, there was a bit of a wait and in my case I was disgnosed with cancer myself and so used the counselling to cope with that rather than what I was originally referred for. Having been on the site for a while I have seen the helpful support and links that Wendy one of the professional volunteers gives so you might also want to look at some of the questions and her answers, I’ve given the ask an expert link below.

    https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer_experiences/ask_the_expert/ask_bereavement_support/discussions

    Theres no one way that people grieve, so I hope you find the best way for you to move forward to where you want to be. For me I had the sharp shock of my diagnosis 4 years ago to rudely make me have to change my priorities and I wouldn’t wish that on anyone, so I understand, but know I’m not best placed to help you but I hope the links I have given will help.

    Best wishes

    Take care KT

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    FormerMember in reply to KTatHome

    Hi KT thank you for your advice. I hope things are going ok for you that’s a lot to deal with

  • Thanks , it all seems such a long time ago in someways, but I am still prognosticating about many crates of stuff I have from when she had to move into a nursing home and wanted her stuff kept safely, one day I will deal with it !! For me cancer wise things are going good at the moment, so I’m hoping you will be able to say that about yourself and how you feel when you are ready. 

    Best wishes

    Take care KT