June 24th 2018, My stepdad was diagnosed with cancer, he was untreated for 10 weeks, he was misdiagnosed with lung cancer then kidney cancer then finally he was diagnosed with renal cell cancer, one that is so rare it only affect 5% of the population, so far, he has had his lung drained, in January he got hospital born pneumonia, and was told he had 2 days to live but he is still fighting. Sadly his riddled with the cancer and it has now cracked his hip, i live with him and my mom, i am 26 years old, i do work full time but i try to help where i can, its been nearly a year now, we have moved to a new location in that time as well. And i was doing a good job of bottling it up and becoming numb and robotic and helping them but recently I've had a few things happen personally and i think everything ive been locking away has surfaced and im really struggling to cope. Im so angry that this is happening to him and i have nowhere to point that rage. I then feel guilty as he is the one with cancer what gives me the right to feel anything. I know im starting to spiral and i am seeking some help but there's no handbook or rules to this and im really starting to struggle to cope.
