My husband was recently diagnosed with melanoma cancer with 3 brain mets. He had some treatment which initially shrunk the tumours but last scans showed they have increased and treatment has now come to an end. I think he is depressed as well as very tired all the time and I’ve accepted that he only has months to live but the hardest thing is being at home so much without having anything to do and unable to make plans for anything. We are both in our 50’s and used to go out quite a bit I feel guilty if I go out anywhere but really can’t stand being at home all the time he doesn’t have any energy or interest in doing anything. He is frustrated and gets quite cross with me at times. Everyone is being kind and supportive but they’re not here all the time I just feel like screaming I know I’m not the one who’s dying but feel like my life has come to an end too and now I feel selfish for feeling like that as well.
Hello and welcome to the community. Sorry to hear about your husband. It is understandable how you are feeling. It must be really difficult for you. We have a very supportive group here you may find it helpful to join, Supporting someone with incurable cancer . It is a group where people are in similar situations to yourself and who will understand . Click the link to get to the group and post your concerns there. Best wishes.
chunksmum, for a start don't feel guilty, or selfish. you are not a Saint, just someone doing their best. I have been supporting my husband for nearly a year, he is receiving palliative care, so won't have him much longer. Not long really but our lives have changed so much. In the beginning l missed our nights out with friends, . shows done our local club, dancing. I only do an hours Zumba once a week now, my lifeline. You must find an outlet for yourself. Do you know l recently realised l have accepted that we can't do what we used to do. I don't feel envious of friends out on a Saturday evening like l used to. It is early days for you but like l said you must find time for you. Carole
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