How I am feeling

FormerMember over 6 years ago

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Hi first time posting anything I was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer in Feb I then had a lumpetomy and lymph node biopsy .then one of the lymol nodes had cancer in so I opted for an auxiliary nodes clearance now waiting to see surgeon again .the reason I am writing today is I feel like I am in limbo as I have to have chemotherapy and radiotherapy but don't know when so feel like I can't plan anything..I feel guilty for not going to work because I can move around and not in to much pain ,so feeling like I have to stop in the house.i feel like I have to put on a brave face to every one because if I fall apart they will nobody talks about it I am asked if I'm ok I just say yeah when really I don't know how I feel.ate all these feeling normal

FormerMember over 6 years ago

I am so sorry to hear about what you’re going through - and what the immediate future holds. It’s a daunting prospect with so much uncertainty and so many unknowns.

The first thing to say is whatever you’re feeling is normal. It’s especially normal during this waiting phase. I think everyone who’s been through this will recognise very well the feeling of limbo and will reassure you that once you have a plan in place then you’ll start to feel better.

I think it really might help to hear that from people in the same boat as you. Why don’t you join the breast cancer group? You’ll get lots of support and be able to join the monthly chemo and radiotherapy clubs and find companionship from people going through treatment with you.

https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer_types/breast-cancer/

If you’d like to talk to someone in person, then don’t forget the Macmillan helpline

All the best