Being told that my time was very limited shook me to the core. After 9 years of chemo, radical neck surgery and my tonsils and thyroid taken away I though I had given myself a good chance to beat this neck cancer boy oh boy was I so wrong. Being given the chance to partake in a trial was a sort of way forward for myself, family and friends and After 3 years on the trial my tumour had went to sleep and almost 4 years of battling side effects from the trial several boughts of pneumonia I finally started to believe that I was winning my battle. I started to plan ahead with things, holidays new car and saving for another Christmas with my now 13 grandkids, all in all I was feeling pretty good inside and mentally aswell. Then the bombshell hit, on a recent scan something looked not right in 1 of my lungs so I have another ct scan to get on the 6th August which I noI need to have but terrified of the outcome. I keep telling myself that it could be the remnants of the pneumonia or the slight copd I have after many years smoking which I kicked 11 years ago, only time will tell. It was so so difficult for my family to see me struggle but they coped well and I just hope I can pay them back with good news after the scan
Onwards&upwards Loch
Hi hope your scan goes ok Loch fingers crossed
hi Tony I'm 60 too and never in my wildest dreams did I expect to be in the same situation, but I too live each day as it pans out, leading up to the three monthly scans is a nightmare I become a bag of nerves then worse waiting for my results appointment or phone call which seems to be the norm lately,I went through Chemo last March 2020 after my initial diagnosis,and it made me so ill I should have had 7 sessions but after five it was stopped due to my blood going haywire,but the weirdest thing about it was I felt ok before it,anyway it shrunk my Oesphagus gremlins but my lymph node in my neck only slightly but enough they said to keep it asleep for a while,then on my routine scan June 2021 they found my neck lymph had tripled in size,so I've just completed Radiotherapy and my scans in three weeks.I know it's only pallitive care but the treatment is draining me. That's my moan for today
