So I've just asked a friend if I have upset her or anything as we don't seem to speak or go for dog walks anymore. Her reply was well everytime I asked you to do anything you said you cudnt be bothered.or wernt Interested so that's why I left u alone . I sed well sorry but I get times were I cant be bothered or I'm not interested its part n parcel of wat im dealing with but I have been back to the docs for chats and I'm trying to force myself in doing things .she has got me so mad 2 the point I think hey u have my diagnosis and see if you happy n go lucky every day. People don't realise the demons in ur head u have to deal with. I wish sometimes she wud just be a shoulder for me to cry on but she not like that. I sed im due a scan this month and my nerves are on edge as they are every time I get one.
