Hi Everyone
I wanted to update on my previous posts. My anxiety seems to have resolved itself, I think something was interfering with my anti depressants and once I changed my medication routine I seemed to have settled down a lot. The anxiety has disappeared, thank goodness.
Following some discussions with my therapist I revisited my decision concerning treatment and did a pros and cons list and it helped to reaffirm why I had made the decision I did. The reason I was questioning myself was because my CNS keeps saying that I can change my mind and it’s not too late, which is nice of her, but it made me question my decision. I think this was also affecting me mentally.
I also thought about my guilt over not doing more with my time but I realised that I am spending my time the way I want to and am happy with, and if that means I am sat at home playing with my granddaughter then so be it.
So what next? Well I have just had a blood test and my tumour marker continues to climb, now 122. I have no idea if this is high or not. One of my liver tests is also slightly high but nothing to panic about. I have a scan in the next couple of weeks to see how the tumour in my liver is growing. I am torn between wanting to know or is it better to be oblivious. I am guessing that I have another two months of feeling relatively normal at least.
SO my question is to people who have stopped treatment but have secondaries that are not stable. What checkups do you have and how long has it been since you stopped treatment.
Thank you to everyone who has replied so far, it means a lot and hugs to everyone.
Cathy
