Thanks to everyone who replied to my original post concerning stopping treatment. I am now looking for some advice about accepting my decision. I am really struggling with how to ‘be’. In the past I was always dealing with one treatment or another, the side effects and then a new normal. Now I just don’t know how to behave. I feel like I should be constantly doing something to make the most of the time I have left, whatever that might be. But this is causing me a lot of anxiety because honestly there isn’t really anything major that I want to do mainly because I have already done all of those things that would normally be on a bucket list. I just want to feel at peace now.
Just wondered how other people in a similar situation are living their lives and if anyone has felt similar anxiety?
Thanks for listening xx
I read a very mature post, balancing treatment decisions with The Future, and rejecting others' demands for a "bucket list".
This has no rationale for me:
I feel like I should be constantly doing something to make the most of the time I have left
It sounds to me that you're there, but beating yourself up because you're not on-the-go 24x7, whilst stating you've done all you want to.
You have nothing to prove. You've already made and justified the Big Decision to yourself. Relax.
Sending you love and hugs 
