I’m feeling anxious tonight after seeing my oncologist today. I’m due my 5th IV infusion of Pembro tomorrow which is going ahead. However my scan results show there looks to have been some progression. She thinks it’s complicated and is still possibly indicating pseudo progressio. I’m not I’ll - in fact feeling a little better than when treatment began. Certainly not in great pain- just occasional abdominal discomfort usually related to after food or when constipated. (My cancer is around peritoneal lining; spread from womb originally and is Serous type)
I just don’t know what to think. Her advice is to keep going and scan again in 6 weeks. If by then there is further progression, we’ll review and possibly start Chemo (which was quickly effective last time, but recurred after 5 months)
You might ask why I’m worried then. I’m sitting here thinking - is it worth it? Is it really going to make a difference? I’m just so mixed up about it all.
anyone else experiencing this anxious confusion?
plus we had hoped to fly off to Tenerife for some sunshine. My oncologist says “I’m not overly enthusiastic about you going” but won’t say don’t go. Now I’m thinking - will I ever go abroad again? I don’t want to be fearful. I want to enjoy the little time I have. But these things are clouding my life right now.
On a positive note - I start my counselling tomorrow! After a 5-month wait. Turns out the nurses hadn’t done the referral correctly. Psychology had never received it! How can that happen? Anyway, the psychology team were stats when they I complained and within a day they offered me an appointment within the week. Something good is finally happening:)).
