Sad today

  • 33 replies
  • 26 subscribers
  • 5961 views

I was supposed to recieve my last scheduled chemotherapy today, but I'm neutropenic and so have been delayed. Last time I was delayed and enjoyed the break but this time it has really knocked me for six. My chemotherapy is palliative, so just intended to give me more time, and so far I have had very little pain. So I know I am lucky, but I feel so sad today, not sure how to deal with it.

I read so many posts on here with so many of you dealing with much more than I am having to so far with so much fortitude. I am glad to be able to be a part of this group. 

  • Sorry to hear about the neutropenia I hope your bone marrow is ok . We will be thinking of you. Let us know how you get on on Friday.xxx

    Ruth 

  • Will do Ruth . Thanks for your thoughts and concern, I really appreciate them. It helps when I have support, helps my mood to have you and others for support. What a lovely group this is, even  and  lol. 

    Tvman xx

    Love life and family.
  • This is a lovely supportive group, I'm so pleased I found it. 

    Sarah 

  • Hi TVman, So sorry to read this. I hope things will improve before you have your appointment. Best to hope for the best and don't make things worse by worrying and I know it is easier to say than do. Take it One day at a time! You are in my thoughts and prayers. I will pray a bit harder until your appointment.

    I have appointment with Dermatology this Wednesday and am a bit concerned about a lesion on my leg, so I will hope for the best and prepare myself for the worst. Not told the family yet as no point worrying them about it until I know either way! The following week I see the Liver Professor! As Ruth said in a different post, at least I'm getting out the house! Lol!

    Salis, glad you had a good Sunday and things are looking up!

    Love Annette x

    Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is a Mystery, Today is a Gift!!!
  • Hope it goes ok on WEdnesday let us know the result. 
    hooe the liver situation is ok 

    I am worrying about you and tvman now. But pleased you can write about it on here xx

    Ruth 

  • Hi Annette  and 

    Thanks for the support, I'm thinking about you a lot too and hope you can get that lesion checked out on Wednesday. Good luck for that Annette, I'll have everything crossed for you. 

    I understand why you aren't telling the family, I don't either for the same reason. It's a worrying time for both of us.

    Take care and stay safe Annette

    Tvman

    Love life and family.
  • Thanks Ruth but please don't worry about me, as I'm not worrying about me. Too busy worrying about TVman!

    Love Annette x

    Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is a Mystery, Today is a Gift!!!
  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to tvman

    I hope you’ll get better news on Friday  it’s a worrying time for you. I’m guessing you’ll be extra careful about easing restrictions. So many of us waiting for results/chemo/ reviews I’m ejnjoying being off the hook, you don’t realise how utterly draining it all is. Hoping everyone will get some good news xx

  • Thinking of so many in this group, makes me appreciate the relative health I do have, my battle recently has been more mentally, I draw strength from each and everyone of you. No matter what this week May bring, may we have the fortitude to face it, May we have the strength to take it without affecting those nearest and dearest, May we appreciate what we have and not what we’ve lost. Love you all. John

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to YoungMan

    Hi John

    Deeply lovely words & sentiment - Thank you so very much and be aware that you and all of our friends are constantly in my own thoughts.

    Carpe diem! (well... maybe when it gets a little warmer... Hahaha)