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Ellie, I have just gone through the same process on something Chelles said.

Looks like we are on a similar page.

Though we are dealing with pain, etc we have gained a form of wisdom others don't have

Onward my darling cancer warrior 

Hug hugs

I call it my new focus and I use it to zoom in on simple, everyday things which then acquire a kind of sublime beauty. I personally don't mind if other people don't get it. It's mine and it's precious. If I can help people on the way I will but helping myself comes first. It rubs off on others anyway I find.

Oh Ellie, what beautiful words and thoughts. I am fairly new on here but I have been reading your posts and thoughts for a while.

You are an inspiration after all you have gone through.

Helen 

Well put Ellie.

Although wish I didn’t have incurable cancer, I am grateful to have the opportunity to think and looking at life from a completely different perspective. I personally appreciate the state of mind I am having right now and realise I would have not got here without my medical condition. 

Love Stella xx

Helen thanks, I am really no different from any one else, well I do not think I am different. lol

Gam sure.lad you  joined the forum, you will get a lot  from it, i

Hi Ellie, As usual words of wisdom from the heart. You inspire us all!

Hi Ellie,  beautiful words.  My mind was at peace for a while but the last two weeks I have been very down and in a dark place.  I keep crying and I am not really sure why.  I was diagnosed in Aug/Sept last year.  Does it get easier and will I get back to being at peace.  I am battling at the moment.

Lee 2 x

Oh Lee hugest hugs sweetheart....

Yes it will pass. When I was first diagnosed with kidney cancer I seemed almost serene about it.. but looking back maybe it was a sort of masking shock effect.

All seemed well after the op but then i was told it had gone to my lungs 

For no reason, because I wasn't brooding about it I went down into the pit of despair.

I just couldn't be bothered to do anything, the joy seemed to go out of things I like.

I have had to re-adjust my thinking. Bloody hard at times.. I am having to FIND the joy, but it is getting better. I am smiling more 

I think it's all part of shock and grief..

Also the lack of energy,  unable to power through like I used to. It gets boring. However, I am learning.

My body may be playing up, but cancer can't take my soul...

It will pass but u have to re-adjust

Hugest hugest hugs

Hi Lee, I hope you get through this rough patch very soon. I have days when I struggle to accept everything but always come out the other side even stronger and perhaps with deeper insights. Life is beautiful with the right focus and approach, even if our new normal means reevaluating the way we manage it. I hope you find peace and enjoy your weekend.

Hi Lee 2

Sorry you are feeing very low and sounds depressed to me. Can you talk to your CNS and ask them to refer you for some counselling. I have gone through some dark patches and find counselling helpful. 

Do you have some new physical issues or scan results due? Those things can definitely make me feel sad and low. It is bad enough to feel low, now you have the worry of feeling like this forever. It really compounds the issue. I think the peace of mind is like the blue sky, it is always there. But sometimes we have clouds and storms etc. But the blue sky will come back. 

From my own experience, I would say you will able to come through this low period. But you may need some help with that. Also the normal advice: outdoor walks, nature, spending time with people you enjoy. By doing small things, overtime it can help to lift you up. 

Take care xx