Can't sleep

Coolcat 2 days ago

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Just lying here unable to sleep. Thoughts going around and around in my head. Going to see the oncologist next Wednesday to see where we go from here in regards to treatment for metastatic breast cancer. Letrozole didn't work. I can feel myself getting weaker and weaker. The side effects from treatments terrify me. I have no interest in extending my life for a few months if the side effects from treatments make me feel bad. I think I may decide to call it a day. Like most on this forum, I have been through so many treatments, hospital admissions, pain. All I want is to be pain free for the time I have left and be able to spend some quality time with my family.. My heart goes out to all of you. I am crying for myself and everyone else who is going through this nightmare.

Coolcat 6 hours ago in reply to anndanv

Hi anndanv,

So sorry you're having to endure the pain. I hope the Pain Management Team can sort out some relief for you asap.

I am in a lot of pain myself just now. I have liquid morphine that I can take for breakthrough pain in addition to slow release that I take twice a day. But, I feel I may have become dependent on the Morphine which worries me.

I am feeling so sorry for myself just now. In addition to the pain, I haven't had a bowel movement for 4 days which is freaking me out.

I have convinced myself I have bowel mets on top of everything else!

The jig saws are fun. Thank you. They do take your mind off things for a little while.

I hope you are able to get some sleep.

Hilo13 56 minutes ago

Hi just wanted to get in touch and express my sympathy for what you are going through . Being unable to sleep is bad enough without the many thoughts and feelings that take over our minds . There are many on here who can sympathise with you . When I can’t sleep I either listen to an audiobook or music , radio three has relaxing music in the night this doesn’t always work I admit . I have always been a person who plans you know plan A and plan B unfortunately that leads to many unhelpful thoughts when faced with what is ahead . I hope that you can get some rest both physically and mentally . Hopefully your appointment will be able to help and clarify your decision going forward whatever happens . Please be assured that along with the others on this journey you will be supported .there is always someone here 24 hours a day if the posts are anything to go by . It would be good to hear how you are . Love Chris