Hi everyone
I've had a great weekend - parkrun yesterday and then cheering on chums at local running races. But, now, I'm looking back at the photos that were taken today and I'm seeing a difference in how I used to look. Not sure what exactly - I think it's my eyes. They look like they have shadows round them and I'm looking like cancer is taking over my body. Which I knew but think seeing the photos has brought it home.
Feeling melancholic tonight and don't know what will knock it out of me. Hope I manage to sleep and stay asleep.
You've probably all felt like this at some point but think I've only just reached it.
Cx
Hi Ruth
The difficult days are tough. I try to remain positive, as we all do, but you know.....
Cx
Hi Tony73
I'd be angry with a misdiagnosis too. I'm glad you're still here!
Cx
Oh Barb, that's an amazing weekend! Your friend and sister sound like good people.
Cx
That is lovely to read. Thank you it was quite emotional xx
Hi . I've never been into running but my bestie keeps trying to persuade me to take it up - not likely LOL. I walk about 5 miles daily but the PN in my feet and swelling on one foot makes it more painful - tying up the shoes looser and looser.
Hope you feel more up-beat today!
Sending hugs, Barb xx
I'm definitely feeling more upbeat today Barb, thank you!
I took up running in 2017. I've never been a fast runner but I love being part of the running community and returning to parkrun has really made me happy. I used to be a jogleader with a local Jogscotland group, before we moved house and diagnosis and it used to make my heart so glad to see complete beginners graduate to running to a 5k distance and beyond.
Cx
I had a really "down" spell yesterday afternoon and thought "this is bad, I need to go for a run for some headspace ". I'm an occassional parkrunner - got my 50, but I like my running for the social and to fix the World. Although I haven't been able to return to running club due to physio issues initially, but now due to how cancer is affecting my body. I've had to re-adjust targets and see how it goes. So running club is a target right now, then maybe a parkrun after that, but that's long term. Maybe we should start a running post/discussion!
Hi Mmum
it's so good to be able, at some level, to do something you used to enjoy doing before. When I say I did parkrun, I mean I walked jogged/walked at the back and it took me 44 minutes!
I really hope you manage to return to your running club. I think re-adjusting targets is important - there's no way I could run how I ran before Covid! And if you don't re-adjust the targets, it would just play with your head.
A running discussion is possibly a good idea!
Cx
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