Hi I hope it is ok that o post this here but the end of life group seems to be a bit stunted with people joining but hardly any posts.
Anyway I have so many friends here I wanted to touch base.
Since last posting I got the full scan results last Thursday and they are as bad as expected. I am now on Pallative care and hoping to last out at home.
My husband has been amazing, family and friends are all being so good and helping out where they can. I have nurses coming in each day and I was amazed when a bed for downstairs arrived on less than 4 hours.
Although I can only tolerate 2 paracetamol alternated with 100gms gaberpentin I am just about managing certain pain and I now have a anti sickness pump.
I fortunately although I am managing some small amounts of food I cannot taste the beloved chocolate.
I am not sure how long I have they will only say it will not be long and to say my good byes. That has been difficult I tell you and as strong as you try to be that knowing that this is probably the last time you will see someone hits home like a ton of bricks.
So I am not saying this will be my last post but just in case I am saying farewell to you all, some of us have travelled together for a long time some of us are new to the group but we all have a common bond. There has never been a time when at least one of you have not been there for me day or night and I have appreciated every listening ear, every piece of advice, every sympathetic response and of course ever amusing story and photos.
Good luck to you all
Love
Hi Maz
I can't believe what I'm reading, I've re-read it a few times in case I've missed something but no, I know that you haven't written anything wrongly.
Maz, you and I go back a few years and shared the odd joke. Remember when you wrote that you thought admin had taken my button away for being naughty again? 
There'll always be a corner in my heart for you.
I hope to see a message or two yet Maz but if you're in pain or too tired, I'll understand.
Take care Maz
Tvman xx
