Talking to people who are in the same situation

See! I knew you’d get it.  I just knew it. 

I am back home after another round of chemo yesterday. It was entirely uneventful. The nurse found a vein first time and all the bags of fluid were ready in good time. The cannula behaved itself and didn’t keep blocking with every movement of my arm. I got some crochet done while I listened to my audiobook (The Mermaid and Mrs Hancock by Imogen Hermes Gowar, read by Juliet Stevenson - excellent) and had a good nap. I got home to find my sister cooking dinner. She’s here for the weekend. 

Xx

Hi everyone well I am finally coming round a little from my chemo last Tuesday have felt really strange like I have been here but not here or or on another planet saw some family Saturday trying to enjoy a little BBQ it was my choice to go but I just wanted to come home all night but did not show it and just tried to smile maybe I overdid it and thats why I have been exhausted does anybody else do this try to keep things normal so its easier on your family? X

I do and then find it gets too much for me. Dont like to burden them with how I am really feeling . X

Hi, I think you will find we all do it! When someone asks how we are we paste on a smile, regardless how we feel and say "I'm fine thanks"! We try to put a brave face on for our family and friends and then when we get home, collapse in a heap!  Yes it's all about family! We should really try to pace ourselves but it doesn't always work!

Hi  Charlotte Louise,

I know that feeling.  I don't know if it is the chemo or the steroids, but I get quite depressed after chemo. It is hard to be motivated to do anything and I have very little patience. When I feel like that I just want to be left alone. Sometimes I can put on the brave face, other times I just have to tell people that I'm not feeling that great and that I just need some peace and quiet to recover. I know that that makes people worry, but when all that is going on on I can't waste what little energy I have I have worrying about people worrying!

1. Its not good to know you feel that way but its is good to know that your not on your own with these feelings am the same I dread chemo I get a bit of peace when my hubby goes to work but normally end up just sleeping instead of trying to get bits of housework done then I get more depressed cos the house is not how I like it then the next day you get up and its the same old feeling rubbish and exhausted and like you say haven't got the energy to worry about others x