The 10 months since starting oral chemo and 6 months since an emergency admission to hospital with severe pneumonia and pleurisy have been challenging, the lows very low but the highs very high, and I'm grateful to have officially joined the "past my sell by date" group.
But I'm exhausted, struggling to manage pain and struggling with side effects of the medication I'm taking both to tolerate chemo and deal with the side effects of it.
There's a difference of opinion about my scans and the cancer markers are as high as they've ever been but are fluctuating so not particularly helpful. I'm being given the benefit of the doubt which is better than nothing.
Yesterday I asked for a treatment break.
I'm having a month off oral chemo, staying on hormone therapy and starting oromorphine. It's such a relief and will give me time to recuperate a bit and build up some stamina. There are so many nasty viruses going around and there's nothing in the tank.
It's the first time I've taken control of my treatment and feels like a right of passage. More scans and then a review on 24thJanuary, fingers crossed! xx
