Well, Christmas and the New Year are almost upon us. It's been a hard year for me being diagnosed with secondary metastatic bone cancer and liver mets. It's been hard to get my mind round it and realise how short a span I have left. Each day is hard and I try not to cry and keep strong. Some days are better than others. Anxiety rules my life and I am at times on a short fuse. Geoff (husband) has been wonderful, he has supported me, rallied me in my dark days and made me realise how much i want to fight this. I know the line is drawn for me and it's not if, but just when. I hope I can be here next Christmas. I did find out how few real friends I have and saw people in a new light. I have heard people make excuses and ignore me. It hurts a lot. People have to deal with my illness the best way they can and if it's to make excuses, ignore me or blame me then so be it. So, to end, just in case I dont make another year, I want to wish you all a long, happy and peaceful life and to thank you all for your kindness towards me. Merry Christmas to you all.
Ellie x
