I was referred because I had a small lump in my anus back in June. I then had a CT and MRI scan and then a colonoscopy which was abandoned due to pain from an unknown abscess. I was told I had a fistula and then forgotten about. Over the next few months the lump grew until it was protruding and reduced the size of my anus making passing a motion difficult and it leaked mucus and stuff. It wasn’t until the end of November I was sent for a biopsy and was told that day it was cancer and I would need a stoma and radiotherapy. I thought it was cancer but it t the operation for the stoma that is really getting to me. My anxiety is through the roof and I can’t relax or sleep properly, am eating very little and have lost 4 stone. I’m so scared and stressed right now. How did any of you cope ? I’m a big wuss, a bad patient and have a low pain threshold. I can’t see a point to it all right now
