hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
thank you for your lovely message, and you are a great support, even though you too are going through all of this.
its very hard isnt it louise? and some days (most) you dont know which way to turn do you? we just miss our parents so much and dont know how to deal with all of these feelings do we?
i know you too are having a really hard time to adjust to this situation we find ourselves in, and im sending you a great big hug too!!
are you still counselling? im thinking about maybe going back, im going to see my doctor again as well to see if they can suggest anything as these feelings are getting worse and i need to be here and better for my boys.
rocky is getting bigger he's lovely.
thank you for all your support louise and i hope you are feeling a bit better today, you all are always in my thoughts and i wish i could help to take away some of your pain too.
thanks for your lovely message, i hope you are feeling a bit brighter.
thank you for sharing your story, and nobody thinks your a right one sharon we have found ourselves in this very very hard situation and most of the time we dont know which way to turn do we? these feelings we have are awful and its hard to deal with isnt it?
i'm so sorry you too are having such a hard time, and i hope you feel a bit better today, thank you for all your support sharon even though you are going through very tough times you are always here for me and everyone else, and it is much appreciated, i'm sending you a great big hug.
thank you for your lovely message, i hope you are feeling not too bad today.
it's very sad what you said about your mum losing the will to live after she lost her soul mate, but as you said we can relate to how she was feeling can't we? when you lose the most important people in your life you just want to give up too don't you? this is such an awful hard journey we are all on isn't it? and some days or most days we dont know which way to turn. things just seem to be going from bad to worse at the moment, i am going to see my doctor again and see if she can suggest anything, not sure about counselling again will have to think about that one.
i feel so ashamed about my feelings as i have these 3 young boys who need me so much, but i cant seem to think about that too much at the moment.
i hope your hubby and jonathan are both well
and thank you so much for your support susan, even though you are going through this horrible journey as well.
thank you for your lovely message and for your support.
i hope you are feeling a bit brighter now, it is very hard isnt it marie?
like you i had an awful day saturday more than sunday itself, just crying and sobbing all day, and i feel that my hubby doesnt understand either, but then how can he, he hasn't lost any of his family, and he isn't close like i was to mine, he tries to understand but cant fully.
thank you again for your continued support and your lovely message, i just didnt want to put my feelings down as i didnt want to make anyone feel any worse than you already do.
hope you are ok today, speak soon, lots of love and big hugs karen xxx
thank you for your message the other day, and for your supprt it is much appreciated.
how are you feeling? hope you are ok, and aaron and josie are well.
thank god sunday is out of the way, another hurdle done i suppose.
mums stone still isnt done we wanted it for last sunday, hopefully it wont be much longer.
i took some beautiful flowers and a lovely balloon to the cemetery but the wind was so strong it took the balloon away, never mind mum knows i put it there for her doesnt she?
hope you have a good day today, and once again thanks so much for your support as always.
Good to see you, it sounds as if you are having a really tough time at the moment but still you are trying to take some positive steps- perhaps your GP will be able to help - can you talk to him/her. Actually Karen there is one important thing - you must not be "ashamed" about how you are feeling, it's good that you can identify how you are feeling and even better that you are talking about it . It looks as if here everyone has had their darker days so you're certainly not alone. We are all aware of how much we have and all the people around us but sometimes even knowing that does not manage to change the way we feel. I would suggest that given everything that we have bene put through and for you it's yet so soon, the way you are feeling is not unusual or unexpected. You are still trying to work out how you can cope in your life without your parents.
Only by being able to confront and acept the way we feel can we ever start to pick up the pieces and accept the way life is now. But Karen you do have so much more to live for, so much more to give and there will be brighter days ahead for you. You need to just give yourself the space and time to start healing, these bad times are all part of the normal grieving process, we'll never get over our loss but in time I know you will get to the point of acceptance - it just takes time and some very hard times.
I'm sending you my love and reassurance that you're not alone xx
Thanks for your message. I'm still feeling really down I don't seem able to come out of it at the moment. How are you this afternoon are you feeling any brighter. It is so difficult isn't it, I can't begin to imagine what it like to lose your parents. I know when its my mums time I will be completely devastated. I wasn't sure whether I should have said what I've done but I had to reply to you after what you had said as I can completely understand the desperation you must have been feeling. I really hope the doctor will be able to give you some help to deal with it all. You have been through so much and my heart really goes out to you. We have to try and fight these thoughts I know I do on a daily basis it certainly isn't easy. You have your hubby and your boys to live for. I really hope you start to feel better I am thinking of you and send you a big hug take care lots of love
Thanks for what you said to me. I must admit I wasn't sure whether I should say what I did as I didn't want people thinking bad of me for what i did. People on here are so caring. I thought if what I'd done would help anyone not to go down that road then it would be worth me sharing it. I hope you are having an ok day you take care love Sharon xxx
How are you today and how is your back. Thanks for what you said to me. I was in two minds yesturday saying about what I had done but I knew I couldn't ignore what Karen had said as I have been there so many times when I have given in to those thoughts. I struggle with those on a daily basis and in some ways at the moment its only my mum that stops me from doing anything at the moment as it would totally destroy her. I know whats its done to her in the past when I've taken tablets and I really don't want to put her through that it is so so hard sometimes to cope with each day but I know I have to find the strengh from somewhere as I want to be there for her. I hope you have had a good day. Its been snowing on and off here but the snows not laying. You take care lots of love Sharon xxx
